JustThink#79 



23rd January,2023...09:25am

Chilll morning with some chai and music by Dream Note - "Waqt Ki Baatein", some lyrics are so on point and relatable to you that you always choose to listen in on repeat and sometimes, you get to hear some lyrics which is not relatable to you but still, you feel great to hear that!
Like this line from "Waqt ki Baatein" song which goes like this, " Tujhme na kami koi hai, bas tera ye din bura hai...waqt ki ye baatein hai, ise guzar jaane do"

Simple yet effective, from past few days I am in a mental mess about my career...again
I was so happy that the current internship stipend got increased even cutting out my working time from full time to part time which is rare...but I was fortunate enough to get this chance...
Its been a week after that, I wrote two scripts and one got rejected...I don't feel bad becoz the script got rejected but from the fact, that somehwhere I knew that I had not given my best in it and still send it to review it made me feel bad...

But why? Why I was not giving my best?
The very first reason comes to my mind is that now, this is my part time internship and I have half of the day free to explore freelancing or even work on my own youtube channel...while having some self talk with myself, I have realised I need to polish my skill more by working first on my own youtube channel so that I can assure my freelance clients about my work wth more confidence...

So, Working on my own chnnel...whats the issue here now?
I don't know what should be my niche here...like I can work on any niche and give my best in it but its more about my brand JUSTTHINK...
I don't want to make videos which is just for views and dont have my actual interest in it...
What is my interest then?
I am finding something which I can work for lifelong...like I should not leave it in half way and be like I am interested to continue...but the issue here is, there is nothing in this world for which I will have lifelong interest...
I will change with the time and I should change as thats the sign of growth and as I change, my interests will change and so my content according to it...

Now, when I am writing this, I am realising if I wait for something which wont change then I will be stuck at one place which I did last year and that I don't want to repeat again
As it wasted my hell lot of time, so for now...I need to find something which can give me good amount of learnings and experience which could be helpful in future for me in terms of growth...
What it could be? What people are liking nowadays? Where to find it?
So many questions and few right answers...

Also, considering the fact that I have many tantrums or I should say, its my weakness that I can't do things which most of the people are doing right now...
I like to make it my way...different way...something my own and more authentic...

I started with this brand to keep my curiosity going on with the people are curious enough to know whats the actual thing important in life rather than listening to some videos which fills you with motivation and knowledge garbage but with you having no real life expereince in it at all...
Life is really simple (I like to believe atleast) and so, we just need to take time, sit and think a bit about what is happening around and what can you actually change about it...
Suddenly, I am being motivational with this blog, maybe becoz I had just got my very first idea for JUSTTHINK youtube channel which is nothing but sharing this blog where I had kept asking questions to myself and tried to figure out whats the wrong thing going on and why?

What I got from asking this questions?
First - I got idea for my next youtube video
Second - I got clarity that I should not wait for any unique niche to kick in my mind which will hold lifelong interest for me...I just need to start something now BUT
Third - I am aware that I don't want to do what everyone is doing as I want to build something my own and more authentic so starting off with something is good idea but also, considering that it should have my own interest and some quality content which align with my brand
Fourth - Enough for now, as I said I have my part time internship going on and also need to correct the second script so appreaciating myself for this today...

That I STARTED!