JustThink#127

22nd May,2024...11:54 PM

Overthinking aur discomfort hamesha hota hai jab i try to face the reality...and as usual it hurts so much...

Jab tak discomfort hai tab tak to thik hai magar ye overthinking ke chakkar mai dimag mai fake scenarios chalte rehna, assumptions bante rehna aur vo darr aana ki kahi koi assumption sach na ho...kyuki that would mean, its the reality and the truth that I am not really on priority for anyone...

I know its not true, its kinda subjective bhi...whats my definition of someone prioritising me..?

Prioritising me means consistently choosing me over anyone else...hmm, not so practical i guess

Why would i want to be chosen each and every time?

Maybe because i rarely got be chosen by someone all the time...but nahi yrrr, logo ne muje bhi choose kiya hai ya fir they just choose me because they were getting something in return, i mean we all do prioritise someone when we something in return like validation(mostly), comfort, freedom of expression etc to isme bura kya hai?

Maybe because mene kai baar logo ko prioritise kiya hai without getting anything in return, no attention, no freedom of expression, discomfort, etc and i kept doing that thinking one day i will get something in return...but i didnt.

So i felt, it is normal

Isme ek galti meri bhi hai, to keep expectations which cannot be true...

Ye expectations kahase bani? Iska answer next blog mai khojte hai!