JustThink...nBlog #32 

                                                          


Few days ago, I was at the point of my life where I was really confused whatever I am doing currently in my life, content writing, youtube videos, designing and learnings business and stuff...

Is it really worth it..?

Doing all this thing simultaneously, it really difficult to manage everything and give focus at one thing at a time...BUT I have to sacrifice my time with family, with my friends and that was the thought which came into my mind...

Even, I get everything what I want but at the end, my friends and family will get over till then, so is it really worth it..?

Very confused and even lazy in completing my tasks everyday which was again giving me anxiety...

2 Days I was quiet, very quiet thinking about every possibilities on my decisions and getting more demotivated...

Then,

I decided to let get depressed consciously and give up on everything...These 2 days I was quite and was overthinking at peak level , not even replying to anyone's message and consciously said to myself that I can't do anything, I give up, no one try to understand me, everytime I have to adjust myself everywhere...

So, Now I will tell you what happen when I decided to do this...

Firstly, my dear parents somehow found that something is happened to me and was asking about my condition but I behaved like nothing happen...and YES, that 2 days I got their love in different form, you can call it sympathy...

BUT that was pure caring, they were worried...

Second thing, as I lowered my all expectations at ground level, therefore anything which tends to hurt me in any way by people was not affecting...

One and a half day gone and then I felt this is not working at all, as I was at constant headache which was not going away anywhere as I was still thinking to giving upon life...

Situation was getting worst until my sister called me and asked WHAT HAPPEN..?

I said in a very lower voice, "NOTHING"...

She insisted, "Clear everything now..." and then I blown out...

I told her everything and honestly nothing changed but it was a great relief, knowing people are there who cares for you and so, I felt this type of reverse psychology is not good in any way BUT YES! I saw people who care for me...

AND also, now I try not to expect much from anyone but I do expect on basis of reality and not imagination...I just expect from myself...

OFCOURSE, its a worst way to learn this lesson but yes, I learned...

The very next day, I started working on my focus on my vision and not on future predictions..

AND TODAY,

I have really a hectic schedule to follow but I am feeling good about the fact I am doing hustle, I am on my way to what I want to achieve...


"Sometimes, you have to give up to learn NOT to give up on anything..."













I had written this blog on 5th OCT, 2021 and was thinking should I post this or not...BUT here it is....