JustThink#118

10th May,2024...05:30 pm

What could be a Mood Killer?

A Bad Sleep Schedule, Upset Stomach at Important Time of the day, Going to the job which you really hate it, Unexpected Kharche, Your tech is not working properly, Unnececssary delay for the thing you want and waiting for soo long and so on...

Yesterday, in a meeting with the team, I realised that the book I worked on for a month need a lot of changes after a 2 months as one of our team member had a lot of feedbacks...

I dont have any issue taking feedback and making the book better but I thought the work is done and now, I just need to focus totally on my new project BUT suddenly, unexpected work piled up in just one meeting which is impacting my mood whole day...

I cant even work on my own project properly thinking that I have to spend one more week on this book correcting all mistakes and following the new structure given by the team...

So, asusual...when my mood is off, I watch random content on youtube or instagram which certainly make me more lazy if done for hours...

In the morning, I tried to be consistent with my work but got distracted easily into watching friends show...it was fun though

Luckily, I had a call with some therapists and gym trainers to work on their story...I was having imposter syndrome thinking, can I work on their story for my channel as I am trying to finish the work as fast as possible so that I get enough stories to be consistent on the channel but at same time, I am worried about the quality

I know, I have to focus on quantity first as quality would improve with the time but I know myself and my comfort zone, if things are going well without any interruption, I may not focus on improving my writing style, it has happened earlier so I know, there are still chances of history repeating itself

Had a meeting today with the team to discuss more on the book structure, uffff

I know, I am taking it as necessary step to improve the quality of book for the readers and eventually, I am going to do it

Sometimes, when you are in such a good work flow then life hits you with reality check of unexpected delays, problems, overloading of work which does shakes you for a while

Anyways, going to have a call with therapists for their story and hopefully, going to complete one script today itself, today is chilll day as compared to hot summers 

In morning, I saw one reel showing a kid saying, I will achieve my dreams once I grow older and cut to tamasha movie's job scene of ved with monotonous life showing that we grew and all the dreams gone too with out childhood or we got some reality check telling us to stop dreaming anymore

I was thinking about it for a while and I felt, naaah

We dont stop dreaming, we just change the way we used to dream

Like I used to have a dream about being a superhero, or greatest engineer or scientist, having some intellectual iron man kinda personality etc 

I used to dream through my imagination, as a kid I was really delusional like many kids tend to be...and now, I still do dream about my life

Its just that now, my dreams are rather based on reality, and from real life experiences

I dont think about my future much but rather pray for better time then before...when you hit rock bottom once in a life, I guess you feel grateful for a long time with whatever you have irrespctive to how much you have....

Now, when i see that reel again, i feel kyu hi bethke dream karte rehna hai...just do whatever comes to your mind and see what happens...thats preety exciting huh!

Lets get back to work...Good Evening.