JustThink#64

of writing...

From past few days, I had started working on my youtube channel again...

Thanks to Aglrow channel, as it is one of the reason I get clear idea about my next step..

Still, there is a long way to go...


Ek bohot hi lamba break lia pich kuch hafto me...from everything...including my friends, little bit of social media and break from TRYING to do something big with just THINKING and not DOING...

Break to abhi bhi chal hi raha hai...

Kuch chize shuru ki hai mene jo me usually bhaga krta tha...like talking to my parents as honest as possible...My father asked what are you doing now...what is the plan?

I know my parents very well so in this particular situation I knew how to convince them for my youtube career 

BUT

I couldnt say a word...I was so not confident at that moment...he asked me 3 more times about whats happening...kya socha hai but me kuch bol hi nahi paya...

He told me to take your time...and in 2 days, let me know what is your next plan,,,

I felt like shit, I was thinking WHY didn't I say anything to him, I did this many times, I had convinced him easily for my career choice and while thinking about it...I have realised

I did what I did because it was my honest reaction at that moment...it was truth that I was not confident about my future planning...specially on youtube

ANd that is why, I was quiet...I was honest with him at that moment

For which I am thakful to myself that I didn't pretend to be like everything is OK in my life

I was not only being honest with him but also being very honest to myself and accepting my downfall at that moment.

Abhi aisa nahi hai ki ye karne ke baad mere dimag me sab clear hogaya...ofcourse not

But it did help me to find my next step or atleast to have habit of talking with my father, mother and sister with good understanding even when our perspectives are different from each other  but understanding each other always helps you calm down yourself and be a active listener so that you can support each other with good understanding...



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